Frustration

Life is very frustrating at the moment. I need to start looking for a job, one that I will actually enjoy, and the little searching I've done hasn't been helpful. I want to stay in Utah for at least a year, kind of get my bearings and get debt a little more under control. I know I need to search some more, and there's a job fair on campus in March sometime I think. It's weird to think I only have three months left in school before I have to join the adult world. It's been great to only be partially in that world because I'm in school.
Another frustration I can't, and don't, want to discuss. But what happened was hurtful, and every time I see a reminder of it I want to cry. The circumstances surprised me, but they shouldn't have. That may sound unfair, but it's the way I feel sometimes. I want to rant and rave about it, but I'm so anti-confrontation and passive agressive that I know that it won't happen. I'll probably be a little cold and stiff, but it will pass because I crave acceptance and friendship. I want to strike back in a similar manner, but I don't know that I can be that mean, or if it will even have the same results. I won't do it, and the fantasizing isn't really helping with my emotions and state of mind.
By the way, I know way too many people that are getting married, and it's FRUSTRATING!! I know of at least four coworkers that are getting married, as well as several friends and acquaintances. It's my own fault because I don't try to expand my social circle, or really make myself available. But it's my last semester in Logan, so I don't want to start dating anyone here, and I don't really know anybody outside of the valley. I just have to be patient, which I've never been really good at with this. Blah. End of rant.